Wow . . . the time is now flying by. I have been very busy at work and between that and the errands I have felt like my time is all spoken for -- not in a bad way, just in a "I don't have time to kill" way. I am not sure if this is a totally fair statement, but it feels like I haven't really been this busy at any other time during this process -- it was just my head that told me that I had no time to practice yoga or do my meditations. The funny thing is though, my lack of getting any practice in isn't making me feel like a failure. I don't think its because I have stopped caring, but I am coming into a place of acceptance, and that feels really great.
I was able to be present more throughout the day today, and life has a funny way of bopping you on the head with this presence. This morning on the Metro the gentleman standing in front of me kept banging into me with his bag. I started getting mad at his obliviousness and standing firmer in my position so as not to give way to the pressure of his bag. I was getting all hot and bothered when the train cleared out and he took a seat next to me. Ironically enough, when he sat down he pulled out Baron's other book "Journey Into Power," turned to the first page, and began reading. I wanted to laugh, cry, and introduce myself to the guy. How funny that I had created this whole story about him being rude, insensitive, and oblivious and he was looking to the same yogi for guidance and strength during his journey. I create so many stories, and excuses, and justifications and just plain BS. I was humbled to realize on an ordinary metro ride how much of my life I create in my head and how much I am willing to judge so quickly. . . . I guess I need to practice more nonreactivity!!
My fatigue seems different this last day or two as well - I am worn out tired, not just bored tired. My brain has been up and working since 6am and now its blissfully ready for bed. There has been a spring in my step that was joyful throughout the day and now its just time to shut down and reboot.
So good night, sleep tight
Namaste,
Clare
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Such a wonderful day! So cool to have that experience on the metro, this challenge is definitely an eye opener into a new part of the world!
ReplyDeletesounds like chance or providence to me! Love, DAD
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