Day 2

Today I don't think either Brad or I were very committed to our adventures . . .

For the record, meditating on the Metro is harder to do than it would seem.  It's not because, as my Mother feared, that people will try to steal your stuff, but rather because the cars are so shaky you don't realize how un-still you really are while you are sitting quietly trying to breathe.  

We woke up late this morning so yoga had to be postponed until I got home from work.  At first I was upset with myself for sleeping in but I was proud of myself that I came home and immediately did my yoga.  I really have to move my mat though, slipping on the carpet next to the dinning room table is going to be a good way to bust my head open.  Brad had a late conference call this afternoon too so he bailed on his cooking for the evening - opting instead for the trustworthy crackers and cheese. I don't think you'll find too many cook books with a recipe for that one.

I don't know if our lack of commitment today is a feeble attempt at resistance to this journey we are embarking upon or just residual fatigue from staying up late for both Sunday and Monday night's football games?  But whatever it is, we both clearly need to recommit more.  Baron talks a lot about responsibility  - I think his point is less about the choices you make and more about how you own up to and take responsibility for those decisions.  Its okay that I didn't do my yoga in the morning or meditated in the none too peaceful Metro car, but I need to cut the crap and stop telling myself some story about why I "had to" make those choices -- I could have set the alarm myself instead of making Brad responsible for getting me up or I could have valued the time to do my yoga over watching the morning news and weather report.  I think its not about what you do its about what you tell yourself the reasons are for why you are doing what you are doing.  In any case, onward and upward . . .

Tomorrow is my first group session at the yoga studio to discuss the journey with everyone else who is doing this simultaneously with me- I am going to go to bed now so I can be rested for that discussion - and so I can do my yoga in the morning :)

Namaste,
Clare